Hello reader,
Tonight, I will like to talk about drugs, but wider. Those things for which one lives without realizing it or keeps us alive, that motivates us, we boost, in which they took refuge when it goes wrong. These things without which we would have so much trouble to move forward without them.
They are of all types: hard drugs or not, tobacco, work, coffee, chocolate, drugs, gods, sex, hate, love, adrenalin, dreams and so on.
That evening, it was not long ago, someone asked me and I told him: sex. Sex is my drug. As a cocaine addict, I need my daily dose, alone or accompanied, whatever.
But the more I reflected the more something bothered me. It took me over a week of reflection and 27 years of life to finally find the answer. My drug, I cut, I mix. This is not only a dose of sex I need. No, I need more. As a chemist, I combine and a dose of love, a dose of tenderness, a dose of induction.
Indeed, it is not enough "dropped the sauce" so I feel good. No, I need a human touch, dip my eyes in those of my partner at the right time, listen to her breathing, her screams or moaning, feeling his body, his sweaty, smell, taste. Must my five senses are used.
But I must also fill the heart, knowing that there are feelings that I do not do it like a beast, to mechanically reproduce or to reduce the pressure. Hear an "I love you" at the right time, have the right to smile during the act, that I love to a body as much as a heart.
But that's not all. There is also evolution. After the act, sleep together and the next day to say hello, have a coffee, talk about something else. Make this act a cement and not just a fleeting moment. Make this stone comes in addition to the building and not that end up in a pool for the enjoyment of ripples.
Throughout my life junkie, I do not often come to this perfect alchemy intoxicating. I often opted for a mixture easier and faster. But ultimately, there really is that this optimal combination that does me good without backlash, as a drug of good quality and not cut with crap. It is this alchemy that makes me love life and keep fighting. This is my philosopher's stone, which instead of turning lead into gold, transforming mountains into impassable Collinet.
Then I heard other drugs, often alternative, but one that I just mentioned, is the best of all.
And you reader, what is your drug?
